Monday, October 19, 2009

SeLf~aSsEsSmEnT

Reading back through my essays over the past seven weeks has been more enlightening than I originally anticipated. It’s interesting how my voice has changed as I have gotten to know my group members better, and read their thoughts and ideas. For example, my American essay was very cloying, filled with only good things about our country despite the fact that there are many things wrong in our nation. I appreciated that Daniel, one of my group members, was able to offer a differing view and more negative approach towards America. Through reading his essay, I was able to expand my own ideas. 

During week three, we wrote an essay on our ideal selves. This essay allowed me to share a more honest depiction of myself to my readers and I worked to infiltrate the positive and the negative. While searching deeper for my ideal self, I found that I was not as self-reliant as I deemed, because I lacked a voice due to my insecurities. However, in week four I uncovered a sense of knowledge and empowerment from Emerson’s essay “The American Scholar,” and established that I needed to strengthen my self trust. 

My most honest and eye-opening piece I have written so far stemmed from Thoreau’s essay “Walden” in week five. Through reading his essay and writing my own essay, I was able to analyze a lifestyle that I thought would bring me happiness, only to come to the realization that I would conversely be discontent with such a life. Through this recognition, I found true contentment in the people that are closest to me, as well as the life’s little surprises. 

In week six, I wrote my favorite essay yet on a subliminal moment in high school, when my boyfriend and long-time crush asked me to date him. This piece was most fun for me because I felt like I was able to share the happiest moment of my life with my group members. My most hated essay I have written so far dealt with nature in week seven. It was during this week that I discovered my struggle to communicate my voice when asked to translate into writing a profound experience in nature. I apprehended my habit to nit-pick words and the need to focus more on conveying the message. 

Overall, I think I have done well in organizing my points in my essays, making for an easy read. Through every assignment, my mind is stretched, and as I assert my opinion, I learn more about myself, instilling an eagerness to continue onward.

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